Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving was great, last week was pretty busy, we celebrated aunt Becca's birthday on Monday with family dinner at Olive Garden, Reed was very adamant that it was his birthday and would get upset when we said it was Becca's, he is very excited for his birthday, and we can't wait to celebrate him!  Thursday we spent the morning relaxing at home watching the Macy's parade and in the late afternoon and evening we celebrated Thanksgiving at Jesse's dad's house then it was home to pack and get ready for a weekend at aunt Andrea's house.  Jesse had to work Friday so we called papa over to play while mom got everything loaded into the truck, papa also helped put up the Christmas tree then he had to go to get ready to leave himself.  Reed and I got to spend some time decorating the house and wrapping a few presents.  Daddy was supposed to get off work at 3:00 but Reed was so excited to go pick him up that we left Jesup at 2:00, he was also tired because we were holding off on nap to try and get him to sleep in the car on the drive.  He did sleep on the way in to get Jesse but after that we was wide awake the whole drive to Andrea's. 

Best I could get right now!

We had a great time at Andrea and Brad's spending time with family, eating, crafting and just relaxing. Becca wasn't able to join us until Sunday morning but that aloud her to bring Grandpa Mealhow with her so we ate Thanksgiving dinner on Sunday and packed up and headed home.  Of course the weekend wouldn't be complete without the truck breaking down on our way home, but thanks to youtube Jesse unplugged and replugged a few things in and we were able to crawl home and get the truck to the shop to be looked at.  So here we are back to Monday again and ready for another week, but a very exciting week because in a few days we will have a 3 year old!! 

Craft Time

Ninja Turtle Hat Aunt Becca made him

With all the good and fun in the week which are great distractions I find myself lately pleading with God to heal Reed all day everyday, we still find it difficult to except this disease. We push on every day but as time moves forward and we find ourselves having to think about or plan about future things and we realize just how difficult it is to have acceptance.  I find myself at night repeating over and over and over again in my head to God to please heal him, to please provide a sign that he is in control that he has a plan.  We know and believe he does have a plan deep down but we are human and wanting that reassurance right in front of your face takes over a lot.  I think especially with Reed's birthday so close the realization of life to come is hitting both Jesse and I hard, how much longer will we be able to carry and hold him, will this house work in the long term to have room for the equipment Reed will need, school and the logistics of all of that.  Again we try to remember one step at a time, one day at a time but sometimes that is hard not to let your head wonder into things you don't want to think about. 

First Snow Fall

I am going to try something new more for myself but also for anyone that is wanting more updates on Reed or more specifics about things. I am going to try and post every Monday about the previous week.  The post maybe small some weeks but that way I have something to look back on and help me remember things as well.

Things with Reed continue to hold fairly stead, last week he was pulling himself up into a standing position more but we know that doesn't really mean anything in terms of standing or walking on his own again.  But it is encouraging to see him having the leg and trunk strength to continue to do that. We have noticed more hand shakiness but nothing that is preventing him for using his hands.  Otherwise he continues to be same old Reed, happy, active and always wanting to be a part of what is going on.  He has recently started to like to play games on the ipad which is a huge thing for him because prior to this starting he has had zero interest in screen time.  Which we know is a good thing but lets be honest it would be nice to sit and enjoy a Disney movie with him ever so often.  We do have an appt coming up in Iowa City with Dr. Perlman just a follow-up to see how he is doing and really to make sure things are not getting worse.  The appt is December 15th and at this time all of us (Jesse, Reed and I) will have our blood drawn to be sent over to the Netherlands for Dr. Vam Der Knapp lab to review to hopefully finally pinpoint the mutated gene.

We do have a big decision to make about Reed's in-home therapy through AEA, at 3 years old the therapy transitions to the school so right now we are trying to decide if we want to enroll him in the 3 year old pre-school program or just take him up for the therapy for the time being and wait to enroll him next school year.  There are so many pros and cons to this for him so this has been a stressful decision for us to make but hope to have a final decision here this week.  Another struggle we have been going through is getting Reed on the state waiver which would make him eligible for additional health benefits.  Figuring out paperwork for this has been a headache but I think we are getting close. I am told there is a two year waiting list for this so the sooner we can get him on the list the better.  We continue to try and potty train, yes knowing that if we are successful he may lose this ability some day but not wanting to give up on "normal" life things we are going to push through and make a good effort at it.  He is pretty good at telling us when he has to go number 2 but has zero interest about telling us when he has to go number 1.  He also has zero interest in undies or pull-up also but the "store" may just run out of diapers one day :)

The first snow fall happened last week and Reed loved playing out in the snow.  We are very excited for the upcoming Thanksgiving week and can't wait to see our best friend Cole come home!  Lots of exciting things happening this time of year.  The most exciting being we will have a 3 year old next week!!! 

One Year Ago

I have been thinking about this date for months now, one year ago this reality started.  What was a normal morning turned into fear and so many questions by the afternoon.  On November 1st, 2014 Reed woke from his nap not able to bear a lot of weight on his right leg, when he tried to walk he would turn his foot in and then fall.  He didn't appear to be in pain but did appear to be frustrated and was fussy.  A trip into urgent care brought no real answers but a follow-up to a Orthopedic brought what we thought were finally answers a crack in the knee is what the doctor thought he saw but wasn't 100% so we decided to put a cast on Reed and wait two weeks to see if that helped.  It didn't and probably made his ability to walk worse.  Slowly we saw small signs of his ability to walk again come back but never gained back the full ability so our search for answers continued several x-rays later still brought no answers and blood work draws twice showed no infection. So after almost 4 months we headed down to Iowa City for an MRI and received the news that now shapes our lives.  Reed has Leukodystrophy.  That moment will be burned in my mind, if I could draw I could draw the room we were in, I could describe the moods in the room I could tell you where everyone was sitting or standing.  That moment will never leave me.  The last year has brought a lot of hurt in our family, a lot of questions, a lot of why but we have also been shown a lot of love and support.  You learn to live for each day to live to not take things for guaranteed, we have learned to love each other deeper, we have learned who and what are important in our lives.  Our daily prayers have changed our hopes and dreams for our son have changed.  We pray for a miracle, we pray for mercy on Reed's life, we pray for time more time, we pray for the doctors and researcher around the world that God will open their eyes and minds to an answer. We pray that we are being heard, we fear we are not. We have emotions we don't want to have, unrelatable, jealousy, sadness, frustration, fear he is missing out. Many times as we pray with and over Reed at bed time we feel unheard we feel like yelling at God to please just show us he is in control, but we know he hears us and we know this is our test, we know he has a plan, we know he is hold on to Reed harder then we ever could. We trust that God has Reed in his arms, we give Reed to the Lord because what else can we do what other calm can we find.  Deep down in my heart I just have a feeling that I know a treatment/a cure will be found in Reed's time, I am learn patience, in God's time not mine.

But...Reed is doing great, his disease has shown no big signs since last November.  His speech is making huge strides.  He is happy and a crazy little boy, he loves deep and is our hearts.  He is so smart he may not be able to get around like he wants to and may not be able to express his words just right yet but he catches on so quickly and he remembers things that just amaze us.  We trust this plan even if it ins't our plan, we live to conquer the day that is facing us and nothing further.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself, each day has enough troubles of it's own.  
Matthew 6:34